I am not here out of anger. Not out of outrage. Not to blame anyone. Those emotions have been exhausted. I am here to draw attention. Returning my national award for Khosla Ka Ghosla is not easy. It was my first film, and for many, my most loved. Those who loved it had families, sons, daughters – who went to schools, colleges, institutes and wanted to become successful and proud Indians – whatever that definition may be.