Your relationship to the audience is essentially via your back. Isn't that ironical?But audiences want to see you.Is there any parallel to explain the special relationship between a conductor and the orchestra?If you play a piece many times over, does it ever become a practised effort?Does it ever become monotonous?How is that possible?It is then the labour of love, always.Did you ever play any instrument?Did you ever give yourself a career option?Do your children play any music?