The film does not explicitly depict sexual abuse yet its presence permeates every frame. Lidia drinks from a flask, surrenders to cocaine, moves through lovers of all genders in an attempt to grasp herself and her autonomy, yet any semblance of control remains elusive. The character’s spiraling self-sabotage registers as relentless heartbreak rendered in meticulous detail. Yuknavitch retains both tenderness and devastation for her father, illustrating how remembering him refuses simple binaries. It extends to the other relationships in her life, like her first husband Philip (Tom Sturridge), a sensitive folk musician. His calmness, passivity and quiet tenderness ignite her fury as she can’t stand to spend her life amidst his “niceness”. Stewart has also reflected in interviews, about the “hairline fracture of a fragile difference between pleasure and pain.” In this film, that fissure becomes a landscape of bleeding, becoming and reckoning.