Gulzar the Village Dog
You told the best stories
Of rivers and trees
Of sand dunes and mounds
Of fertile fields and happy harvests
Of boisterous cows and sneaky barn rats
Your favourite story to tell was of Gulzar the village dog
Of how he drove robbers away
Of how he buoyantly guided the postman through dusty alleys
Of how he watched over sleeping babies
Of how he could sense oncoming storms
How I loved all of Gulzar’s adventures
How I could never have enough of his escapades
How I waited for you to tell me a new one
How every episode had me in splits
How each one has come to live in my mind
Childhood is a forgotten trip or is it really?
At the edge of an imaginary meadow I still run into Gulzar
He is the same — brave, playful, responsible, intuitive
Together, we chase butterflies through dandelions
Promise in our eyes, sun on our faces, wind at our backs
‘Your Copy of The Old Man and the Sea’
Your copy of The Old Man and the Sea
is faded and yellow
the cover cracked and curled on the edges
your scribbles from years ago remain fresh and sparkling though
you wrote in bright blue ink
over the lines
on the sides
on the top and bottom of pages
to feel the story
to internalize the struggle
to grasp that no matter how profound a loss
someday it would be compensated for in some way
when you had sat scribbling away
did you know that
one day in a place very far away
each scribble of yours
legible and ineligible would
reintroduce me to myself
prod me to throw everything up in the air
awaken me to a new way of being
Our River
I remember you sitting by the river and reading
handsome like a figure in a Raphael painting
absorbed by the book
forever in love with the river
the very same river that broke its banks every monsoon
flooded our fields, damaged our crops but
nothing could turn your heart from the river
never did you miss a chance to remind me that
it was the promise of the river that
had drawn our ancestors to its banks
it was the river that had nurtured generations of our people
count the bounties of the river and not its seasonal transgressions you would say
never would I have imagined how deeply I would come to imbibe your words
invoking them during my encounters with the world
every passing year reaffirming your belief that goodness was the only beauty and
to acknowledge that the ultimate truth
I remember you on iridescent mornings when the wind whistles in trees
Kindling long-ago conversations, waking up memories
As I lap them up, a birdsong chimes across my mind to meander along the river —
your river, my river, our river of bounties
Mysterious Depths of Oblivion
When I was little
you took me to see the colourful dancing fountains one evening
dazzling hues sparkled in the air
red, blue, yellow, green
I bent over to
touch the rainbow water that
whirled at the foot of the tallest fountain
do fish live here, I asked
you smiled and shook your head
the fountain swayed and twirled
a million stars bursting through the skies to join in the dance as
we began walking back home in the twinkling silence
little did I know then that in the end
that would be all that you’d be left with —
colours smiles and silence
the last time that we met
all your words and memories lay displaced
you were smiling at a distant fountain
prismatic colours reflecting on your face
a gigantic wave of quietude
inching you away further and further into the
mysterious depths of oblivion
On The Third Day
it had become a ritual
every time that I fell sick
I would brave it out
take medicine
drink water
think happy thoughts et al
I would do that for two whole days but
if despite it all
the fever persisted
on the third day
I would call you
I am running a fever I would say
complain
cry
feel sorry for myself
even before you would have had the chance to respond
I would sense
the fever subsiding
my sprit lifting
my mind regaining composure
you had a penchant for
shooing away fever
turning things around
changing outcomes
it’s been several months now
since you have been gone
seasons are gliding away like swift clouds
I have been fighting to keep fevers at bay
because last I heard
there is no provision to call the dead
(Simrita Dhir is a California-based academic and novelist. She is the author of the critically acclaimed novel 'The Rainbow Acres')
