WIN Chadha is a pale shadow of the man he once was. Four years after his wife died of liver cancer, he has peered several times over the brink and seen death. His catalogue of illnesses abounds with danger words like diabetes, high blood pressure, prostate problems, water retention, cardiac complications and breathing troubles. His daily dose comprises 25 tablets and capsules a day; a standby doctor and a nurse stay by his side 24 hours a day. Illness, however, does not prevent him from working painstakingly at his memoirs, which will probably be titled Win the Day, an apt reflection of his determination to win at any cost. There is anger in his glazed and tired eyes. The CBI disclosures that Mrs Kanta Chadha (deceased) and his son Harsh Chadha also figured as beneficiaries in the Bofors gun deal have stung Chadha to the quick.